I just turned down an opportunity I've always wanted

Everything was surrounded by light. I felt so happy I seemed to be floating. It was like the whole world stopped and rejoiced with me. I extended my arms out and just as my hands were about to make contact a sudden burst of cold wind made me shiver. Odd, I thought to myself. I turned my attention back to where it was suppose to be before the sudden burst of wind distracted me. I turned around only to find out that the wind carried away the opportunity I've been dreaming of ever since...

When they told me I was one of the chosen students to attend the Journalism Workshop on July 31- August 1 I couldn't help but feel happy at the same time sad. It would be my first time to attend this kind of workshop and to be honest I've been waiting for this opportunity for a very long time. It was a dream come true for me to be chosen to attend the workshop for two days. My classmates who were part of the Journalism Workshop last year said it was a great learning experience, which of course made me more eager to attend. We attended a meeting that afternoon at the grade school AVR together with the rest of the chosen students. When we were told to ask permission from our parents to join the workshop I knew in my mind that my mom wouldn't hesitate to answer yes. She knew how much I loved writing, but the next line our teacher said change everything. I felt a sudden pang of sadness. The journalism workshop happened to be on the weekend before the week of our exams. I tried to smile when I was given the circular but I was only fooling myself. I am never gonna get a chance to attend the workshop.
When I got home I told my mom about it and she asked me if I wanted to attend the workshop. I simply shrugged my shoulders and sat down on our chair. I didn't want to decide and so I told my mom that the following week after the workshop was our exams.When she heard it she simply told me not attend. I was devestated. She signed my circular and handed it back to me. I cried of course, I've been waiting for this opportunity for a very long time. I guess if it's not meant to be then it isn't. I'm not worth it anyway.....